"So Much for My Happy Ending"

Initially I was going to walk you through the next six months of my life. I was going to give you the inside look to how much I fell in love with Robert - how I truly believed he was the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with. But after much thought I realized that for how much I was in love with him the reality is he dumped me and broke my heart straight in two. And I could get into all the details but the truth is while trying to write this all down proved to be a little harder on me than I thought it would be. So, I am going to give a 30 second run down of it all just so you can get up to speed with my life. Here it goes...

After that first date we went on a second date before he left for an annual 2 week Costa Rica surf trip with his best friends family. He ended up leaving it early and came home. From that day on we were basically inseparable. Within a couple weeks he had made me a key to his apartment, rearranged the furniture in his place and began to call it "our apartment." By month 2 I was basically living with him. His mom came out to visit, we traveled to Philly to see his best friends, we hiked, traveled by motorcycle all around the coast, sailed the bay and frequently spent beautiful nights in the hills of Belmont at his Aunt and Uncles house. Everything felt right, and everything felt real. We were in love and there was nothing that I THOUGHT could come between us. However, 6 months later he proved me wrong.

One thing about Robert, which I knew about him going into the relationship, was that he had a huge fear of commitment. However, since all of our "couple-y" decisions were his idea I thought (as every girl dreams) that I was the girl worth changing for.

Unfortunately, I fell victim to a man who thought he wanted a grown up relationship when in reality he didn't want that at all. He is a great person but a person who could easily end up alone for the rest of his life - not unhappy - but alone by choice. I, on the other, hand know what I want. At the young age of 24 I thought I wanted to settle down and when Robert broke up with me it made me realize that I am still young and don't need to get married and have babies right now. Of course, I eventually want to meet the man of my dreams, fall in love and have a family - but for now I think living in the city and dating are just the ticket to happiness.

About a month later I decided to go back on match.com. It was time to get back out there and meet some guys. I figured I would double my chances considering I live in a city full of good looking single people so why not go out and meet guys and scroll through profiles "winking" at each cute boy that catches my eye. So, I revamped my profile, new name, new attitude same goal.

Match.com round 2 - here we go!!